<<<>>>Then what about ending prayers in "In the name of Jesus" to somehow make them "valid." Like God will grant our request because I use his code words. Is my intent to really come before God relying on Christ or is it just to manipulate God?
<<<>>>What about when you ask for things and then you should immediately thank God because they are done, will be done, if we have faith? Isn't that a bit presumptuous? Or just stupid? What makes MY will God's will? And I don't even want my will, since that is usually based on selfish, nearsighted motives.
Just sorting it out. It just seems silly for me to ask for things and here is why:
When I was at my most hopeless, I prayed for God to let me die. I knew I was as dead inside as a living person could be and I just wanted to be released. I didn't know how things could change. Everyone else seemed perfectly OK, but I wasn't getting it, like some deformed farm kitten born to relatives that are too close genetically. I knew there was peace after death, and I prayed with all my being for it. I actually did all the little human manipulations to make a "good" prayer. But I never died. Instead, God gave me life.