Question 2-What has God taught me from a lack of money?
Money...the love of which is the root of all evil, right?
This one is hard, Chris. I am not rich by any means. We usually live paycheck to paycheck. But I always have for what I need. Having grown up rather poor, money may not have the same value for me as it should. I think of myself as well off because I try to give money away. When I see someone in need, I want to be able to buy groceries. I can't do big stuff, but I would like to.
My husband's take on money is a bit different. He puts up with me asking to do stuff and buying food for the food bank, but having money to live comfortably is more his perspective.
Being a teenaged mom, things definitely were hard. I lived on handouts from charity and family. I disliked it so much I went to school to become a nurse so I would never have to rely on a dumb boy again for money. Now, I am paid pretty well as a nurse but I am also married to a dumb boy who provides for us as well.
Charity, altho it feels good for those of us who give, is a huge lump to swallow for the recipient. For that reason, I try to give anonymously but when I have to do it personally, I tell them my story and ask that they just return the favor to someone else in need when they are in a position to give. That seems to lessen the sting.
Of course, part of that sting is humility. Well, it can either be humility or humiliation. Humility is realizing that God has you were He wants you and He provides. Humiliation is that bad taste left in your mouth from resentment and pride because you know it is because this man or this job or this eviction is holding you down.
You know, Jesus said we will always have the poor with us. Doesn't that mean that they are just as valuable? Do we get to know the poor? Do we know any poor? Not just when we drop off stuff, but do we pay attention to who they are?
Growing up reading Mother Theresa, I romanticized the poor. Today, working with other addicts, I know that the poor are no different than the middle class, and probably no different than the rich, except for their income. There are people who have faith and people who have none. There is joy and there is apathy. There are people who are content, and there are those who are focused on getting more money.
Ok, all this is to say that God teaches me to trust that He will provide because He has. He teaches me to sort out my needs and my wants because I sometimes confuse the two and more than anything I need His will to be done. He teaches me to love, Him and my brothers and sisters. He teaches me that my true joy and fulfillment can only be attained in pursuing Him.