I have been meditating on the sin nature. Jesus came to save us from the penalty of sin->sin->sin nature.

It is easy enough to ask for forgiveness. It is easy to ask to be saved from the temptation of sin, and sometimes we even mean it. But what about from our sin nature, which I am also translating as personality.

My personality is geared toward self centered interests-approval of others, praise for my intelligence, anger when I am ignored or insulted....sounds like sin nature to me. It is hard to be transparent, even to a God who is omniscient, about the place where we will sin because we simply can not sin.

I have been despairing how woefully inadequate I am...and yet also aching with desire to serve Him. A catch I have found is that I am picky, my personality coming in again, at how I would like to serve Him. It is my personality, my desires which cause me so much trouble. I realized the other day that my back pain has been much better but my time with God much less. I leaned on Him so much during my worst days that I would thank Him for my pain because it was the vehicle that caused me to cling to Him. Now, I see how easily I fall back on my personality, my sense of rightness, my ideas. Can I learn to cling to Him because my personality ails me?

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Anonymous said…
The curse of the human ego. I for sure have the same problem as you. I lean on HIM most when I am in pain or suffering. I take over the job when life gets good again. I haven't found the answer to this one and know now that each day he brings me to that next place I am suppose to be. I have faith that if he leads me to it, He will get me thru it!!!

Leaving the details up to HIM.

Thanks for sharing and blogging Jaime I love reading your blog!!!!

Love in Him,
Chris
January 4, 2009 at 7:39 AM
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