My blogger friend Peter is having an obedience carnival. Unfortunately there are no funnel cakes or lemonade to enjoy while you read, so just pretend your coffee and toast is more exciting than it is.
If you have been reading the Armchair QB posts, you know we are studying the book of Proverbs in church. Sometimes, looking at all the "shoulds" is very frustrating. I think we all want to be more than we are.
The piece of obedience that I have been looking at, gnawing on, twisting to find the best angle, is how to be who I am, who my Father made me to be.
I want to be good. I want to be articulate. I want to be needed, indispensable. I want to be loved by many. I want to be admired. I want to be memorable.
Somehow, trying to live the principles of my faith has almost become a contradiction to those things.
I need to be less. I need to elevate others. I need to be quiet. I need to be supportive. I need to be content rather than ambitious. I need to be loving rather than loved.
This isn't bad, by any stretch of my fertile imagination; It is just this new paradigm, this new understanding that makes so many of my "old" goals and desires irrelevant and obsolete. Where do I go from here? How do I serve from here? What would Dad like me to do?
That question has given me so many opportunities to sit and let needs drift by....looking for the "right" and "called to" service. This year I am reading a chronological Bible, (I admit my class distracted me so that I am about 2 months behind, but I am catching up!) and over and over and over thru many books and pages His Word speaks to me that I should love God, with all of me-my emotions, my thoughts, my actions, my comings and goings & that I should demonstrate this love by caring for others-the orphan, the widow, the unloved, the forgotten.
Do I do that tho? We save seats at church for our dearest friends. Maybe I could save a seat for someone I don't know? When have I bought groceries for the foodbank? Even in this economy, I am more wastefully wealthy that most of the world.
Obviously, I am still gnawing on how to become more obedient to Him. Where are you with this?