Armchair QB is back!

We have started a new series called "Wisdom Road" which focuses on the book of Proverbs. Honestly, sometimes I think George gives us so much, that there is just so much revealed, that my small brain has difficulty processing. This is part of the reason I began to write Armchair QB: to give myself a place to gnaw on things and hopefully increase my understanding.

Tho there were a few pieces I thought about writing on, this passage stuck out:

My son, if you accept my words and store up my commands within you,

turning your ear to wisdom and applying your heart to understanding,

and if you call out for insight and cry aloud for understanding,

and if you look for it as for silver and search for it as for hidden treasure,

THEN you will understand the fear of the Lord and find the knowledge of God. (Proverbs 2:1-5 NIV)

From this passage I learn that wisdom and knowing God are a process, but they are also an ACTIVE process. I do not sit around and suddenly *poof* the wisdom angel bangs me on the head with a baton and I "get it." One pastor I know put it this way:

"To be filled with God, you must be in pursuit of God.

If you're not regularly trying to stay in tune with the Spirit

you will lose His frequency.

If you're not talking to God,

if you're not seeking Him,

if you're not reading His written words,

you will not be opening yourself up

to His influence and His work.

It's just the way it it-

to find God, you must seek Him;

To be full of Him, you must be welcoming Him."

Sometimes it seems really difficult. To even be in this process, I must admit I fail. I forget to pray. I forget He is there to even talk to and just plow through difficult things on my own. I do not live the way I want. Often I wish I were better at forgiveness or being gracious or simply being content, but I grouse and I shut down or I strive for more than I need to be. None of that is me seeking His will, of course, but it is my first reaction. His Word challenges me to die to my reactions and my desires, but more often than not, I would prefer you to die to yours.

Still, I read His Word. I meditate on the things I learn, on the things that make sense and on the things that I do not yet understand. I pray, not as often or well as I might like, but I love to curl up in my Father's lap and just talk to Him while sometimes I just cover my face and tell Him how awesome He is. While I "turn my ear," I am not sure I apply my heart often enough. Probably more often when things are not threatening. Still, I try.

I am in process...a process of becoming more and more like my Lord. Sometimes I think, "Ugh, you schmuck! You missed the mark again!" And I do miss the mark; I sin. But I will not stay there. I will not be chained to sin. I hold onto the hope of 1 John:

Dear friends, now we are children of God, and what we will be has not yet been made known. But we know that when he appears, we shall be like him, for we shall see him as he is. (1John 3:2 NIV )

How amazing will that day be? Not only to see Him, my Love, but to be like Him...not stumbling in a process but standing in Glory. I look forward to that day! But for now, I will continue...to actively pursue Him and His wisdom.